I need to unboson myself with someone or I'll certainly explode
I'm a 18 years old boy and though I'm young (but enough experienced) I
already don't understand this world, this society and my peers
It seems to me that our society today has completely lost the innate
knowledge of what life and living mean and everyone who think different from
the masses is ridiculized, left alone, boycotted, and his way is barred

I think I wouldn't have so much problems with society if I were allowed to
be
different and look for different experiences and people (live and let live)
but this world and
this society is so strong and discriminatory that if you're different you're
a misfit, a foreign virus bo be destroyed
There are only two examples left in our world that remind me of what being
alive means and how life should be lived and they're cats and children
We as humans are spiritual, complex beings, we need to be disinhibited,
follow our emotions and desires,
be surprised by every new day, looking for something new and marvellous
everyday, be inchanted by the simple things of life, be spontaneous and
follow our inclination
and what we like instead of what televisions and magazines want us to be, be
in harmony with our body and with the nature that surround us and always be
aware of how our conscious is complex and that it can't be labeled and
judged by psychiatrists and
physocologists and nor we can believe that our thoughts are so simple as
that of television, magazines, music
There are innate features, those that make us humans and that make life
worth living

How can beings with such needs can live with inhibition, bigotry, lack of
surprise for life and simple things of life, without spontainety, with fear
of physical contact, imitating what television and commerce want them to be,
with shame of their bodies, forgetting the nature
that surround us, making the same empty actions every day, labeling every
complex conscious forgetting how complex we are and most of all ridicolizing
and castifying those beings that really know how life should be lived such
as children and animals ?

I see this everyday ... the society and the people around me
They don't follow their instinct, their desires .. they follow television
and the conformist masses
They believe that they're able to love but have fear of human contant, fear
of being spontaneous, fear of accepting every different facet of a complex
personality
They are inhibited, not spontaneous but when they think they're being
disinhibited they're actually following some television archetype that it's
false

They are not living, they are starring in their life, they act following
commerce, masses, fashions, trands, television .. not following their
conscious
And they have the power to destroy those that are different from them
I've a cousin who is 9 years old
He's spountaneous, dishinibited, true, sincere, affectionate ... he loves
life and his actions are not mediated by society, by conformism, by
television, by fashions, by false manners, by commercial-inducted false
desires, by the way our society would like to make our complex nature
simple, dull, empty and labeled

Unfortunately any of these facets of his true personality are always
derided, ridiculized, humiliated, criticized, castigated and punished
The dull, empty, hysteric, false, bigot, bodyphobic, artificial,
discrimatory, conformist people producted by this society are trying with
all their strength to kill and destroy any little bit of spontainety,
naturality, sincerity, sense of wonder, creativity, originaliy and conscious
indipendency from all the false messages of fahions, television, commerce
still left in few people

How can a being born with an analitic (this is green, but this is a bit more
green) mind, be happy in a world that is forcing us to reason in a
tecnologic manner ?
Where the sense of life, the reason to be alive for many people has gone ?

How can they keep imitating false comformistic stereotypes from television,
being so unspontaneous, inhibited, bigot, doing the same things every day in
an automatic manner, mortying those different from them and still believe
that this can be life ?

How can they keep believing in simple personalities, and labeled archetypes
and still find that a life so few complex and so dull could be worth living
?

How can they keep believing that everything we want is a McDonald burger, a
Gameboy,
a DragonBall DVD .. how can they keep believing that everytime a child or a
teen is thinking about something, that something is always a material need,
something seen in television or another false idea ... how can they believe
that children, teens and adults can only have so simple thought and emotions
such as those from any teen-movie soap opera ... how can they really
consider a so simple, materialistic, dull life something worth living ?

How can people live with so limiting ideas ... "boys doesn't cry" "girls are
not interested in boys activities" "if you're 18 it would be boring to play
or talk with a 16 years old" "all you need to be happy is money" "you can't
discuss about something with a child, children are ignorant" "humans are
superior to animals" "television is the reflection of reality" .. and still
consider life worth living ?

How can human beings sons of nature and naturility and all siblings be so
frightened and scandalized by everything that it's different and sincere ?
People that are scandalized when you greet them without being-formal, people
that consider being active and happy a pathological illness, people that
wonder what mental problem you have if you trust other and greet them in the
street, people that consider crazy a woman that naturally and spontaneously
go out in his garden with only her pyijama on to bring food to his dog ,
people that call a psycologist if their child seem more interested in
drawing and running than studying story, people that beat their children
when they don't sit still or behave themlseves (hence: they're eating in the
natural way nature intended them to eat) at dinner, people that consider
every though different from that of this materialistic society; bull-shit,
people that consider you strange if you don't go at the disco, people that
consider you crazy if you silently cry when listening a beautiful song or a
poem, people that call the police for every strange sound they listen,
people that don't talk with you out of fear spiritual, physical and mental
human contact

This is not the way human beings are meant to be
In fact, nothing in nature is so cold, politically correct, labeled,
catalogued ....

Where all of this come from ? There's nothing in nature like human bigotry,
conformism, inhibitation, fear of the different, discrimination, hysterism,
irrationality, coldness, asentimentalism, political correctness, etiquette,
Nothing in nature is so false so sterile ....
Sex, religion, age, class, colour, language, nationality, psycological
archetype, psycosis, ideas, theories ...
it's ridicolous how many unnatural and senseless artificial barriers and
compartements people and this horrible society created ...
There nothing natural, innated, spounteneous left in this society !!!!!
It's like following a chart created by the society where people see what is
allowed and normal an what is not allowed and strange and this chart is
their bible..

Eveything that bring money, eveything that appears on television and
magazines, eveything that pseudo-psicologists from television, everything
that is done by conformist masses, everything that is fashion and everything
that is formal, phobic, and political correct is allowed all the rest is
just strange, unconvenient, to be destroyed

Evetything that it's unnatural, oppression and domination is teached and
allowed, eveything that is spontaneous, natural, free from
society-brainwashing is derided and considered strange or pathological

No matter how they want us to believe that we live in an open-minded
society, we actually live in a false, movie-like society, hysterical and
cold society ...
We're going toward the most inhibited, free-emotions, hysterical, artificial
human era ever seen if such thing as gouvernament, commerce, conformism,
society-mediated phobias are not eliminated and all the humans doesn't awake
from their long-lasting sleep and doesn't realize that all their innate
emotions, their spontaneous feelings, their sense of wonder, their
acceptance of everything is part of nature (even if not political correct)
their love for diversity and their naturality have been soothed and numbed
by this unnatural and sterile society

The worst thing of all is that when theiy become aware of their emptiness
and falsity they are given a
television-manual "how-to-be-yourself-and-spontaneous" from a TV series and
they really believe that by following such sterepotypes they are being
themselves and spountaneous

I know my peers are not spontaenous and every action they do is society,
fashion, commerce, telvision mediated ... but since they always discuss and
laugh aloud (in class, or in the bus) they do believe that they're being
natural and dishinibited
Actually, they're showing how inhibited and false they are since they need
to strain and force they voices and laughs in order to appear "natural"

Not only everything is false and dull but it is even more false and dull
when they really believe they re doing the contrary of being false and dull
This because again it's not natural, mediated from their spirit and
conscoius but society and television mediated
So if it's sad when they are empty, phobic, unspontaneous, inhibited,
conformist, discriminatory .. it's even more sad when they act
(unsuccesfully) the role of someone who is natural, spontaneous, open-minded
.... and so on

Destroying every innate instinct that make life worth living is sad, living
a life without the true sentiments that are innate in every beings in this
world is sad, mortying those different beings who still have the sense of
wonder for life and live it with sincertiy is sad, sostituting our
instincts, sentimens, complex personalities, dishinibition, spontaneity,
creativity and lack of dicriminatory thoughts with false pre-constructed
sentiments from television, globalization, commerce and conformism is sad,
acting (badly) the role of yourself in your own life instead of living it is
disturbing

Maybe meditation can make help people awake from their cultural mediated
sleep
I see everyday more and more people who are depressed, unhappy, despite
money, despite "so-called" friends, despite their career and they doesn't
know why
They doesn't realize that it's the depression of acting the role of yourself
in a life that you're not living; a role where every acting rule is so
unnatural and contrary to everything we innately are .. rules that are
senseless, bigot, non-spuntaneous, irrational .. feeling that are contrary
to our conscious, to our innate sincerity and spontaneity ... a role that
make our spirit and our mind forgetting what the sense of life is, what
living is for
I think people are running without stopping and relaxing (every years thet
run faster and faster) because they consciously know that stopping, relaxing
and meditating about our world and listening to our conscious would cause
them an irreversible depression

I don't know if that is the world I want to live in

Thanks for reading
Daniel